Sexo gostoso entre negros

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It's been weeks since the weekend I gave myself to Matthew She hasn't shown any signs of life since but the truth is I haven't looked for her either I didn't dare I really wanted to talk to him
I don't know him well enough to make sure I can trust him which means he won't tell anyone about our little adventure It gives me the creeps and I get the creeps when I think that even Roland's friend knows everything besides him I trust Emese because if she knows something about me I know something about her In fact if you recall he was about to tell us how he got physical with another woman when suddenly things were different So I spent my days in fear and I wished I'd been years away from that weekend and those events It was really good
In the first days of the week following the secret event I was very afraid of when Matthew would come forward or if he would come forward at all I didn't want to get into any trouble I was just really scared that it would get out and my husband would find out I was cheating on him And friends acquaintances kids family Whoo-hoo I hate to even think about it I was so full of shit how I could be so stupid If that means the end of my ever-established quiet loving life"I don't know what I'm doing and where I'm hiding in shame We must therefore clarify the state of things
These thoughts swirled around in my head every day but after a few weeks I started to feel a little more relaxed when my phone rang at work It was routine especially when I saw someone calling from an unknown number I think I must have gone soft in the moment which was not overlooked by my colleagues around me including my friend Emese I picked it up because I always pick it up
- Yes please
- Ahem Hi I'm looking for Victoria XY
- Yes it's me
- Hi - hi I'm Matthew
My knees started shaking Oh my god I was afraid of that - I was secretly counting on it
 I can barely hear you in here
Holding the line I put my phone in my pocket and stepped out into the hallway Luckily it was empty
- I'm here - I was whispering - Hi - hi
- Hi - hi - then be quiet
- What did you lose your voice? - I was trying to make things a little easierI was the one who thought I was going to collapse right away I was shaking so much
- No I'm not I'm sorry to bother you at work but I think it's a good time and place to call you I mean you know?
- I get it don't worry How did you get my number?
- I peeked out of Emese's phone
- Yeah Why are you looking for me?
- I'd like to meet you if that's possible
- No that's not possible - I hit him hard
- But I want to - said Matthew in a sad voice
- I don't think that's a good idea In fact I think it's a bad idea
- I don't want anything
- Well don't
- But I want to talk to you - he asked for it
- I don't think I should I'M scared)
- Look I don't think we have anything to talk about and I just hope I can trust you - I added it quickly
 Of course you can But let's not talk about this over the phone
- Look Matthew just so you understand Yeah it is yeah it is it was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity There is no sequel and there will be no sequel okay?
- Yeah sure I see
- All right?
- Yeah sure okay yeah
- No but don't you see? - I yelled at him - Please don't do this to me I've got enough on my plate
- I'm trying to tell you that
- No don't say anything just leave me alone for life Oh please - then I hung up on him
I was crying so I went to the bathroom real quick - Shit I'm so nervous and that I talked to him well it is he wanted what I wanted clear the air And I almost told him to fuck off like a real jerk in fact Jesus I'm so nervous how am I supposed to work? And home? What if Attila finds out I'm in trouble? Oh my god what the hell did I do? - I've had a nervous breakdown I felt like shit I remember living my own shit so ashamed I didn't even know what I was doing a lot I was just wondering if my co-workers didn't notice my insanity Not as Emese who immediately noticed that something was wrong but as a good friend and as to why I am the way I am did not say anything and often tried to help me out in my work To be honest this conversation with Matthew has however stirred my sense of shame even more - Oh my god I cheated on my boyfriend My family -
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